Breakoutt*

Monday, April 04, 2005

Guess Who's Back?*

Prince* @ 11:20:00 PM

Me!!!

Monday, February 28, 2005

Oprah and Halle...Just Because*

Prince* @ 11:26:00 PM

Chris Rock doing a good damn job at hosting.

Morgan Freeman winning Best Supporting Actor.

And I know damn well I ain't the only black person that is overly freaking happy Jamie Foxx won for Best Actor at the Oscars. You GO BOY!!!

Now all I gotta do is rent "Ray". 'Cause I haven't even seen it yet. :-\

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Snow*

Prince* @ 11:20:00 PM

Pray for a Snow Day!!!

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Wednesday, February 23, 2005

Number 50*

Prince* @ 1:03:00 PM

I've been off from school all week and I haven't blogged. What the hell is that?? Now I'm back!! LMAO!

So Monday was my mother's birthday. Her 50th birthday actually. And I didn't do anything for her, well I couldn't. I had planned to do something special since January, since being the horrible son that I am I normally don't get her anything. I was hoping to buy her big bouquet of flowers, a very nice card, and write her a very long and meaningful letter. There was some other stuff that I wanted to do but all of that was shot to hell. The Saturday before her birthday, my parents left on a plane headed for cruise to celebrate her 50th. I do not even know what parts this cruise is/will be traveling. All I know is my mother isn't here and isn't going to be back until Saturday. So I'm home alone again for this week with nobody (at least, not as yet) to bring over to the house.

I'm a little disappointed cause I did want show my mom some appreciation. I tried to have everything ready by the time she left for the plane. But I didn't dedicate enough time beforehand. I'm not a mama's boy. (Ok, Yes I Am!!) I love my moms to death. We may not always agree on everything, but I love her dearly. She's my everything. I just really wanted to do something special for her cause I don't normally show her the love and appreciation that I know she deserves. She's done everything for me and my two brothers. She works constantly and I just wanted to do something for her. I've been feeling kinda weird lately. I don't know if it's my New Year's Resolution for change finally kicking in and or it's just the natural happening of life. One of the main reasons I'm a little bit disappointed this is a one time thing, sort of a moment that I can't get back. "Things are a changin." My mother is still young and beautiful but number wise she's up there. In three years, my father will be turning 60. I'll also be turning 20 that same year. My brother turns 26 the first of March. Graduation is June 4th. College is around the corner. All of my friends aren't going to be around by September. I guess I'm realizing that some these moments aren't going to come again and my people aren't going to be by my side constantly. My parents aren't always going to be there unfortunately. I'm leaving school and am about to enter a totally new environment. "Things are a changin." I don't know if I'm ready for it. All I know is that I should at least show my love and appreciation to all the good things I have right now in my life before they leave me. Cause I don't know if I like change just yet.

I guess I will have everything displayed perfectly on my mother's bed for when she comes back. Better late than never right??

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Sunday, February 13, 2005

Back Again*

Prince* @ 2:03:00 AM

I'm back again. Yup Yup. I should blame my absence to laziness but I prefer to call it an unannounced "hiatus". I've had alot of those though. I haven't been in the mood to "blog" so I took sort of a break. Today I had a sudden urge to be back on here. I've missed this damn thing, I really have. I'm back close to full time.

What's New? Well the parents are away. They're down in Trinidad enjoying themselves. They usually go back "home" around this time every year for carnival. So for the past week and a half I've been alone in the house. My brother spent most of his time knocking about somewhere in the Bronx, now that he has a car (my mommy's car). Every once in a while he brings home the occasional slut for him to drill while he cheats on his whore of a girlfriend. I usually meet them the next morning as they leave the same time I do for school. Even though my mother isn't here, her present was still felt. My mother had one of her friends occasionally drop by to bring some food for me. I get three phone calls from three different people every morning to make sure that I'm up and ready for school. I had a history of cutting while they were away, not this year of course. My brother's were calling me every night to check up on me and make sure I didn't have people in the house. My mother didn't want any girls or boys in the house. I complied. But she didn't say anything about men though. :-p ... But there were none, so I know she's happy. Other that relaxing and noise free, my time away from them was kinda boring. I didn't get anything pierced like last year. I didn't go crazy. Disappointing.

OH! I also got accepted to Stonybrook (#2). I love PSU and I prefer a bigger school. The programs I'm sure are better. There's probably a greater diversity among the students there. However I don't want money to be an overwhelming burden for either me or my parents. (Shit if I stayed at home and commuted to Stony, my tuition would be $2000 less than my current 6000 + high school tuition). And I just need to stay in New York. I don't think I could ever really leave this place. Despite it's bullshit, I love this place.

** Lackawanna Blues. I just wanna say that this is one of the best movies I've ever seen. Already on my favorites list. The movie is written by Ruben Santiago-Hudson the man who's character narrates the story and is directed by George C. Wolfe. They're unknowns to me but still a great story. It was done so beautifully. Wonderful production. The characters had depth and beauty. Ugh... I love it. This movie had me close to bawling. Close. It showed earlier tonight. Hopefully yall can check it out one these days when it re-airs. Really good movie.

I'm Out!!

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Monday, January 24, 2005

A Good Day*

Prince* @ 11:26:00 PM

Blizzard '05 has finally gone away, for now. I knew it was goin to snow over the weekend but 18+ inches was no where in my mind. I stayed at home all weekend. The last time we had a blizzard in Dec '03, my friends and I went to go see a movie. We trekked through hard winds and falling snow to see... Honey (with Jessica Alba and other unimportant actorts). Waste of time and money. The thought did cross my mind, but after coming inside with my finger numb and having them soak in warm water, home wasn't so bad. I love snow and all, but extreme body numbing cold is not my thing. But hey, I had my few but still very pleasurable Fox 5 "Special Weather Report" interruptions featuring my favorite weather man from Good Day New York. (At Right) He's such a cornball, but damn!!! I feel sorry for anyone who stayed out this weather with no place to go. I couldn't imagine. The blizzard, of course, made today an adventure going to and from school. It was fun trying to maneuver through those uncleared pathways early in the morning, trying not to slip and fall, while the bottom of your pants get wet, snow is slipping into you shoes, and longjohn remain one of the most uncomfortable thing ever. I also love those big mountains you have to sometime hike over just to get somewhere. Lovely! The buses ran late. I got to school late. Nuff' Said.

When I finally got home, I was pleasantly surprised with something nice in the mail. It was a big ass envelope from Penn State with "congratulations" on the front. That really gave it away and ruined the surprise for me. I was officially accepted to Penn State University. I love that school, too bad I'm not going. I realized recently that no matter how much I like PSU, I really want to stay in NYC. (Hopefully not at home)Ilove it here. Still a sligh possibility that I might go to PSU though. In other news, I also came out to one friends. My friend J. I was talking with her over AOL but I was too pussy to do it through IM so I e-mailed her a message. Surprisingly she took it well. She took it how I knew and wanted her to take it. It's really nice to hear or in this case see the words "Nothings changed... You're still the same." I'm a lucky bastard, I wish everytime I do this I get that same reaction. (HA!!!) So far I haven't had any dramatics.

Oh man, we're going to have some babies together.

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Monday, January 17, 2005

Prince* @ 11:15:00 PM

"Hatred paralyzes life; love releases it. Hatred confuses life; love harmonizes it. Hatred darkens life; love illuminates it."

- Martin Luther King Jr.

Thank You.

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Monday, January 10, 2005

Tennis*

Prince* @ 12:07:00 AM

Today was the last day for my tennis lessons. I've been taking lessons since November in the tennis center at Cunningham Park. I enjoy playing on the court and I'm glad that I get a one on one with my instructor as opposed to group lessons. Very nice! But I'm sort of glad that they're over. As good as the lessons are, I only go there once a week. On Sundays from 12 to 1 o'clock. And for 10 weeks of instruction, 1 meeting a week, $415 is really over kill. We actually just finished making the payment today, the last day. My parents are excited and all that I'm taking up tennis, but I know they're biting their teeth over the inflated fees. Of course just getting there is another hassle in itself. Normally to get to that particular area, I would take two buses. Lucky for me, the second of those two doesn't run on Sundays. So I have to get a ride. Of course, My parents... if they actually stayed home on a s Sunday. Again lucky for me, they don't. So my only other alternative, Linden Car Service. Yes it is better than a public bus but...oh...wait... $12 dollars to go there and $12 to come back. Thrice, my luck!!!

Now the atmosphere of the actual place is nice. We play in this two big inflated bubble domes. There are 5 courts in each dome with 8 outdoor courts as well. I always play on court 10. Very nice tennis center. The park itself is huge compared to the mini one a few blocks down. The people are ... people? As expected I'm one of very few black people that actually go there. Student-wise, the only other black people are very young kids, ranging from 4 - 9. Other than that, I'm the only black kid in my age group. (At least on Sundays) My instructor is white and so are most of the others I've seen. There's one black instructor. A very healthy looking bald 40 to 50 looking man. He's a very good player too. We've never talked, except for today, when I was leaving we passed each other and he acknowledged me with a "How you doing?" I wish I had him, but he teaches more of the advanced students/adults. My instructor is cool though. He makes me feel comfortable. (And he has nice earrings too!)

It's not so much that every time I go there, I'm one of few black people there. Shit I do that every week Monday through Friday, when I go to school. I'm pretty used to standing out by now. It's the looks that I get. I would like to think that I'm hallucinating, but since I started in November there's certain people I see every week that give me a good ole grill. Like the long-haired china-man that's always sitting on the couch in the lobby-lounge area talking to the squeaky red haired receptionist. Every time I pass him on my way out, we exchange nice long stares. Every other week, the really, really heavy set, panting like she ran a mile in 3 seconds but only sitting down in a chair, trailer park looking woman, gives me a really surprised and wide-eyed "What are you doing here?" look. My favorite is that one black guy. He's a parent, married some white chick and has these two cute mixed looking kids (They are the ones taking lessons). I usually sit outside on a bench watching some of the older people play while waiting for somebody to pick me up. He passes by me on his way out. Every time he passes by, I don't look directly at him but I use my peripheral vision. When he comes by, he stares me down for about a good 7 to 10 seconds. Usually towards the end of that span of time, I finally look at him and quickly looks away. Every week, same shit!!!

I just don't feel comfortable there, at times. The people are just... ehh. I'm kinda glad I don't have to even see some of them fools anymore. That's if I decide not to sign up again. They start back lessons in two weeks. January 17th to some week in April. My instructor is expecting me to sign up again, cause well I told him I would. My parents are so excited about me even taking the lessons (the future male black Serena Williams), that they want me to sign up again. I'm not as excited, unlike everybody else. Not only cause of the people there and weekly stare matches. The money is also a drawback, it's become such a chore with those payments and travel. 1 lesson a week? (BOOOO!) And looking ahead, I have other things that I'll be needing soon. Art supplies being my biggest concern. I do enjoy playing, but I'm not sure if I want to go through this whole thing again. I'm still debating. At least I can sleep in next Sunday. WHOO!

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Sunday, January 09, 2005

New Resolution*

Prince* @ 6:42:00 PM

~~As is this wasn't already happening...~~
I keed I Keed!!!

In the year 2005 I resolve to:

Masturbating at least twice a day.
Get your resolution here

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Thursday, January 06, 2005

Smile*

Prince* @ 11:45:00 PM

Taken on the fifth(yesterday) with my mom's digital. Yes that's me!

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